Friend, Partner, Companion, Soul-mate??!!!
This page over the year had became more of a scrapbook rather than a fully flourishing blog site. But I feel close to it. This place is like the notebook of Tom Riddle where it is full of tits and bits of my soul, pouring and staining the pages with instances of extreme passionate feelings or nothingness at time. But the most important thing each post is that maybe they are the reflection of the different phases of my life, unknowingly put down, uncomprehending to many, but still it would be a great read if someone follows the intentions of the writer rather than what's written.
But today's post is nothing but a mere trial at expressing my love, gratitude, respect, passion, joy and numerous other such emotions to someone who is deserving and made me what I am today. The story began when we first met at the market. It was not the love at first sight occurrence and we had no idea that it would stand the test of time for this far. I was tentative, and for her I was just another guy. So they journey began with the obvious course of mutual exploration. I had no genuine experience at this area, other than a few flirting and some infatuations. I was skeptic but shared almost everything with her longing to find out what haven't been shared yet. I was at the end of 2nd year in college and was just too excited to have someone who I can share time with. Simply and honestly speaking, it took care of the envy I felt whenever I saw my friends have something that I haven't. So slowly we began to learn and understand each other, and when I finally passed out of the college she became more than a friend. She became the most important person in my life. Secrets were exchanged, huddles were passed and hiccups taken care of. But still she felt I was longing for more. Why wouldn't she? I had eyes for better ones, even few who were beyond my grasp, and the more I compared the more she striven for better performance. I got a job, and suddenly I realized that we had to part physically and for the first time I realized the value of her. I was determined to get her close, even if means cutting of working hours and I succeeded. Again it was me who didn't see it was she who made the success possible. But I had begun to see things in more responsible ways from then on. Slowly, but steadily she improved by taking all the positives from all over, never asking for any thanks. She was tormented when she was hurt and pained beyond expectations but never saw the wrong in me. And almost 8 years have past.
I look back today and find all that is left on the path was bad memories, and realized that all the good memories have been preserved by you know matter how weak or hurt you were. You have grown so much fond of me in these last few years, you are forgetting to love yourself. But that had to change now. There are always better models available in the world but for me it is you I crave for in my own crazy way.I may occasionally like the 3G speed of the internet on my mobile but it simply make me love your stability more than ever (just calculate the number of smartphone lay waste with me). All I want is the sheer presence of you, the way were 8 years back. I have been a fool not see the things you have done for me or helped me through any and every stages of life since my teenage years. I forgot that you are not the old one with 80GB hard disk, 512MB RAM (a mobile phone has more than that now-a-days). I failed to see that maybe you are the same old cabinet, but now you can boast of 1500GB hard disk and 4GB RAM, only the old cabinet make you stronger. I cannot take back how I behaved with my beloved Computer Desktop, but I hope I can make the future happier and better if she believes in me. And you know me, I hate laptops.
But today's post is nothing but a mere trial at expressing my love, gratitude, respect, passion, joy and numerous other such emotions to someone who is deserving and made me what I am today. The story began when we first met at the market. It was not the love at first sight occurrence and we had no idea that it would stand the test of time for this far. I was tentative, and for her I was just another guy. So they journey began with the obvious course of mutual exploration. I had no genuine experience at this area, other than a few flirting and some infatuations. I was skeptic but shared almost everything with her longing to find out what haven't been shared yet. I was at the end of 2nd year in college and was just too excited to have someone who I can share time with. Simply and honestly speaking, it took care of the envy I felt whenever I saw my friends have something that I haven't. So slowly we began to learn and understand each other, and when I finally passed out of the college she became more than a friend. She became the most important person in my life. Secrets were exchanged, huddles were passed and hiccups taken care of. But still she felt I was longing for more. Why wouldn't she? I had eyes for better ones, even few who were beyond my grasp, and the more I compared the more she striven for better performance. I got a job, and suddenly I realized that we had to part physically and for the first time I realized the value of her. I was determined to get her close, even if means cutting of working hours and I succeeded. Again it was me who didn't see it was she who made the success possible. But I had begun to see things in more responsible ways from then on. Slowly, but steadily she improved by taking all the positives from all over, never asking for any thanks. She was tormented when she was hurt and pained beyond expectations but never saw the wrong in me. And almost 8 years have past.
I look back today and find all that is left on the path was bad memories, and realized that all the good memories have been preserved by you know matter how weak or hurt you were. You have grown so much fond of me in these last few years, you are forgetting to love yourself. But that had to change now. There are always better models available in the world but for me it is you I crave for in my own crazy way.I may occasionally like the 3G speed of the internet on my mobile but it simply make me love your stability more than ever (just calculate the number of smartphone lay waste with me). All I want is the sheer presence of you, the way were 8 years back. I have been a fool not see the things you have done for me or helped me through any and every stages of life since my teenage years. I forgot that you are not the old one with 80GB hard disk, 512MB RAM (a mobile phone has more than that now-a-days). I failed to see that maybe you are the same old cabinet, but now you can boast of 1500GB hard disk and 4GB RAM, only the old cabinet make you stronger. I cannot take back how I behaved with my beloved Computer Desktop, but I hope I can make the future happier and better if she believes in me. And you know me, I hate laptops.
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