The Wish

So the old foolish writer returns. For good or for worse nobody knows. I wrote many things that came abruptly to my mind with almost random posts over the years. But I think I have returned here for writing that would be for a lifetime. Let’s see how things work out. But let me clarify something first .I am here for writing the things that affects me as a person. As a common human being, tied by the ropes of relationship, culture and social obligations. So whatever I say is completely personal and it is the sole discretion of myself. And u are free to judge me by whatever u want, but please spare me of any opinion and criticism. Anyways enough of the complexities. But that’s what I am, judged by a few of my closest persons, but am seriously bothered about a few things. I am overwhelmed by their compassion and concerns but I am at loss about things that you want from me. Love and care for parents and family, thinking about how the future would be and how life with blossom with you or without you? Life is all about 3BHKs, with fully automated appliances, and swanky glossy finish with loving wife and husbands, demanding leaves or work from anytime you have a mood for a quick movie or eating out. It’s all having different wardrobes with different sets of clothes and shoes designated perfectly for every occasions and reasons. Life is about “you cannot wear a jeans and leather jacket to mourning, it looks too flashy” or “com’n we are eating out, how come you are wearing a formal dress, it’s supposed to be your off day today”. Also life is about the yearly tour with GBs and TBs of photographs and selfies on our smartphones and advanced DSLRs that would consume half of the hard drives without devouring the mammoth beauty with our naked eyes. Life is trying to create an impression about ourselves within a handful of relatives and friends and be offended and depressed if someone doesn’t like your hairstyle or dress or pose on Facebook or Instagram which has billions of users. It’s about smart touch and gestures and being in the awe of something that Ai can do better than our own intelligence. I am sorry. But the list is endless for my own hunger to be satisfied. I cannot ignore the fact that these are essential and became a part of our lifestyle, rather habit over the last few years. But I still have nightmares about the days when we were able to meet, communicate and share with each other with more dedication without the help of the smart features and apps we have today. Maybe I have changed too much or I haven’t been able to keep as much pace with the advancing age. But I would still favor the way, old or new where I can be with my loved one. The things that are trying to get us closer is pushing us into oblivion. The only way is balance, which we have to find of our own. Waiting for someone to understand what I said. I had just tried to express my gesture and want to be in touch for my whole life.